Life

I think now I'm afraid to post anything very detailed, or any of my opinions. Because of what happened in february. Of course, I knew that that would happen. Ah well. If any of you care, or are reading this at all, I'm going to try to be better, especially when I go to germany.
It's hard, though, to write things. Because I'm not specifically talking to anyone and see this as more of a diary, there isn't any specific conversation. And most of the stuff I learn day to day deals with things that I just can't write on here. Like the last couple of days. Lots of stuff has happened. But all I feel like putting up here is the little things.
Then again, I think that's more of what I've just been doing in general lately... busying myself with little things, so I don't have to think. Not even lately, for a long time. Now, I don't want to sound like I don't think about bigger things in life. It's just those inevitably involve my family and that's hard to discuss with anyone unless you're in a very intimate situation.
Life sucks. Not really... but we're all given these choices, what our goals are, what we care about. How we will see ourselves as a success. My mom's entire life focuses around us. Meaning the 4 kids. It floors me how much she sacrificed for us... and I'm so, so lucky. Because I can't imagine what would have happened if she hadn't. If she had decided that she needed to live life for herself.

We'll all float on.